173.
what can i say? i was wrong about you
i thought you wanted her the whole time
and when we broke up
you were single
she was single
and yet, you never left my side

172.
a guy like you isn't even supposed to give a girl like me a second glance
so why do you think i'm beautiful?

171.
be the romeo to my juliet
we'll live, we'll love
and i'll die in your arms

170.
how can one simple song
say so much?

169.
i apologize if my honesty is too much for you
i can't help it,
i'm a writer

168.
i've been writing all day
thinking up all sorts of ideas and stories
and somehow, they all come back
to you

167.
& you're one of those pretty eyed boys that promises to be different than all the other boys.
but in the end, you're all the same

166.
let the rain fall down
washing away all of our worries
we'll just be together
and it'll be amazing

165.
he's so beautiful
can i just gaze at him forever?

164.
sure i'm in love with you
but "just friends" is better than
strangers

163.
in those photographs you look so sweet
and innocent.
sad, even
like you have so much more to say than you ever could
so you just keep quiet.

162.
i see you sitting there. you look so gorgeous. but no one but you will ever know what you're thinking behind those baby blues.

161.
it's an amazing thing when you meet someone and you know right away that there's an amazing connection there.

160.
i miss you so much. and i can't wait to come home. it feels like forever since i've been held in your arms. it feels like forever since i have been able to look into your gorgeous baby blue eyes. and it feels like forever since someone that loved me has been able to show it. i miss you.

159.
i know what i just did could definitely fuck up my life.
and i know what the consequences could be.
but at the moment, it felt so right.
and i just couldn't walk away.

158.
i definitely think you and i could go places.

157.
i love the way you baby me. the way you hold me in your arms and touch my face ever so softly. i love how you smile at me and i just can't look away.

156.
i've never met a guy that makes me feel as good as you do.
and i'm so sad that i have to be apart from you.
don't worry baby, the time will go by fast.

155.
sometimes i feel like i'm being so fake.
this smile that's plastered across my face
and i'm the only one
who has any idea
that i mean nothing that i say.

154.
nothing can come between sisters.
we'll be besties 'til the end.

153.
it's nice to finally be with a boy
who says forever.
and means it.

152.
for every girl, there's a boy
who will love her and treat her like a princess
the trick is finding him
before you completely give up on life.

151.
i know you've had your share of heartaches and breakups
bad relationships and faking make-ups
if he's hurting you and making you feel like shit,
he doesn't deserve you
leave.

150.
just because you're gorgeous doesn't mean you can treat everyone else like shit.

149.
don't even sit there and act like you know me
when you never even made an effort

148.
until you've been called ugly. until you've been called a whore.
until someone has told you you're not good enough
every single day of your life,
you have no right to judge me.

147.
guys always say they want to know if you've lied or cheated,
but it's really code for,
"tell me so i can dump your ass"

146.
they say make love not war,
but sometimes love hurts just as much.

145.
it's this kind of music that reminds me
of who i was
who i am
and who i have the strength to be.

144.
huh. who would've thought?
my parents were right.
it did get better.
our relationship was stupid
and i did get over you.
but they were even more right
when they said i'd find somebody better.

143.
i sit here and listen to this song.
it's the one i've heard time and again on the radio
but i never realized 'til now
how much truth it holds.

142.
i know i should trust you.
i know i should believe you.
i know you say you love me and i know..
i probably shouldn't say this,
but... prove it.

141.
before i make a big decision like going to the same college as you
i want to make sure you love me.

140.
i know i just saw you yesterday
and i know that i'll see you in just a few short hours.
but baby, today has been hell without you.
i miss you

139.
maybe it's the little things that matter.
maybe he doesn't need to buy me a ring
or jewelry,
or anything else fancy.
maybe i just need little kisses on the nose
or the forehead.
maybe he can just hold my hand.

138.
it was only after you pointed to the sky
and told me what your favorite constellation was,
that i realized,
it has been so long since i looked at the stars.
i'd almost forgotten they were there.

137.
being brothers is one of the strongest bonds.
but it can be broken.
i'm glad you guys are best friends.
it's a good thing.
keep that.
because being brothers is the most important.
don't let something as stupid as a girl come between you.

136.
i know you want to sleep.
and you're getting mad that i keep trying to kiss you
and hold you.
but i can't help it.
you're just so darn adorable.

135.
i never said you couldn't talk to her anymore.
i just said i don't like it when you do.
so think about what you want more.
and base your decision off of that.

134.
her: i'm falling for you. but i'm really scared.
him: of what?
her: of what could happen when i fall completely.
him: i'll be here.
her: so it's okay for me to fall?
[he nods]

133.
her: hold me tight. don't let me go.
him: i won't.
her: do you mean that?
[he nods]
him: i promise.

132.
her: you scare the shit outta me.
him: why?
her: because you have so much potential.
him: potential for what?
her: you can either make me the happiest girl in the entire world. or you can hurt me really bad.
him: well, i hope you're happy because i would NEVER hurt you.

131.
is it wrong
that i want to spend time with him?

130.
so you said i was gorgeous
and you wanted to show me off
to all of your other friends
but i didn't realize
until just now
that that REALLY meant
showing me off to her.
the one who dumped you.
so what?
i'm just some gorgeous thing
to parade around
and basically say
"FucK YoU" to all the girls
who ever dumped you.
well..
fuck you.

129.
i'm falling for you.
but i'm not all the way there yet.
i'm scared to reach the end because one of two things is going to happen.
either you'll catch me.
or i'll hit the ground and scatter into a thousand pieces.

128.
so all this time, you weren't hurt because she cheated
you were hurt because you didn't get to take her virginity.
it doesn't bother you that you didn't get to take mine?
well, if it counts for anything,
i wish you had.
instead of him...

127.
so you're comforting your ex
because she's scared.
because HER new boyfriend
wants her to move in with him.
and she's not ready for that.
they haven't even been together for a year.
well why don't you tell her
how we've been together for a MONTH
and you want me to move
to dubuque
and then nevada
and then get married.
and spend the rest of your life with me.
that'll shut the bitch up.

126.
if you're not careful,
you're going to get caught.
and then where will you be?
nowhere.
and all our dreams
of a life together
will fade away.

125.
her: when was the last time YOU kissed ME? you know, if i didn't kiss you, we'd never kiss at all.
him: maybe if you'd just wait.
her: for what.
him: [kisses her long and hard] for that.

124.
what's with you today?
you want to kiss me, you want to hold me.
you're smiling at me.
if i didn't know any better,
i'd think you like me.

123.
[she smiles at him]
him: what?
her: i just think you're really cute, that's all... and you're mine. that makes me really happy. hence, the smiling.
[he smiles back]

122.
i don't want you to leave.
i'm afraid that you'll realize you were just fine..
without me...

121.
take my hand and squeeze it tight.
don't worry about hurting me.
at least i know you're still here.

120.
you know, baby.
even though you're stupid.
and a jerk.
and you mess around too much when i want to be serious.
i'm still falling for you.

119.
let's just fall in love.
it's really quite simple.

118.
and i can't believe that,
after all this time,
now you're telling me you're not sure
how you feel about me.

117.
reflected in a new mother's eyes
is the most love that ANYONE
on earth could ever know.

116.
baby, i look at you playing with my little cousins
and i can just tell
that my little girl is gonna call you daddy someday.

115.
i'm so excited to get out on my own.
go to college.
meet new people.
experience new things.
it all means one thing:
freedom.
but it also means having to leave my mommy.
and i don't want to.

114.
nobody understands the stuff that we teenagers actually go through
every day.
the fear that we might get pregnant.
the fear that we're not good enough.
and the fear that,
[[what if]] i'm not good enough.
i can't go to college.
and i can't MAKE something outta my life.

113.
if you keep ignoring me,
i'm going to name my teddy bear
after your ex.
who is now fat.
and a lesbian.
(=
((haha. can you believe i actually SAID that?! lol))

112.
thank you baby.
you've made this day perfect.

111.
her: do you even want to be with me anymore?
him: yes.
her: because i feel like you never want to hold me and you never want to kiss me.
him: yes i do. i'm just dead tired.
her: too tired to show me a little love....

110.
her: i feel like i never make you smile anymore
him: why would you say that?
her: because you never smile anymore.

109.
i know you hate your father
but he's a sweet guy
he just doesn't know
how to deal with tough times
and he doesn't know
how much you need him
to be there for you.
you should let him know...

108.
we need to have been dating for longer than a month
before we have this talk.

107.
NEVADA?!
you want me to move to nevada.
right after high school.
and, and, and...
start a new life.
for college and a family.
but you can't even marry me until you're done with flight school.
oh geez. this is too much for me to handle.

106.
and i don't know what to say anymore.
i know you've had a rough night.
but i've never been with a boy who doesn't abuse me.
so please,
under NO circumstance,
yell at me.

105.
i know i followed you here.
to this party.
and i don't know how to get home.
but i'll find my way.
don't worry.
because i just can't stay here
and watch you
watching her..

104.
i feel so sick. my stomach hurts. i have a headache. my heart is beating faster and faster. i feel like i can't breathe. and you just sit there and watch TV? you say there's nothing you can do.
just hold me.

103.
to my future daughter,
i have waited so long for your arrival. and now you're finally here. you're so beautiful. and your daddy and i love you very much. i can't wait to see you take your first steps or hear you call me mommy for the first time. i'm so excited for your first day of kindergarten. your 8th grade graduation. and when you head off to college to pursue your dreams and your life. i know the day will come too soon that daddy will hold your hand as you walk down the aisle and be with the man of your dreams. and i know i will be right there by your side to hold you as you give birth to your own precious little boy or girl. i love you with all of my heart. you are my everything.
love, mommy

102.
i'm so proud of you.
by big, strong
airman.

101.
if you really want to be my man
if you really wanted to be the one i'm with forever.
then you would know what i want.
you'd know i just wanted to be loved.

100.
i don't want to fuck.
i don't want to have sex.
i don't even want to make love tonight.
i just want to be held...

99.
i want a guy that doesn't watch porn.
or go to strip clubs.
or look at dirty magazines.
i want a guy that doesn't do that because he knows
that it makes me feel
as if i'm not good enough.
and he knows that's not the truth
he knows i'm everything he wants.

98.
you think i'm lookin at that other guy
you think i want him.
you think i think he's sexy.
the truth is.
his girlfriend is the one i want..

97.
i want you to love me
even if i eat a lot
even if i gain a little weight
even if i don't wear makeup everyday
even if i don't get dressed up for you all the time
even if i don't look my best on a friday night.
because imperfect is who i am.

96.
you're a very beautiful girl.
and don't let anyone tell you different.
just because you don't like makeup
or dresses
or girly stuff
doesn't mean you aren't gorgeous.
be you
and you'll be the most beautiful girl in the world.

95.
girls can be so stupid.
thinking you want their man
when yours is clearly better.
i just don't have the heart to tell her,
that boy she's with,
that she thinks i want,
he's my cousin. hahaha

94.
i changed everything about me because i wanted you to love me.
but now that you're in love,
it's not with me.
it's with the girl you wanted me to be.

93.
my girls.
i know you will always be there for me.
when i need to talk
when i need to cry
when i need to shop
when i need to just drive
we'll be together through
the good and bad.
i love you chicas.
for always.

92.
it's not too late
we can fix this
we promised we'd be together forever
and ever
and always.
and never love another person.
now we've both had other boyfriends
and girlfriends.
but we can come back to each other.
i promise.
it's not too late.

91.
i hate how you only hold my hand
when you notice there's another guy around
that i could potentially think is attractive.
i hate how you drop my hand
when you notice there's a hot girl around
that you think is really attractive
i want you to hold my hand
when you want to
and think i'm attractive
and besides,
that hot girl you saw,
she was lookin at me.

90.
i hate it when you buy me things
just because you can.
i know you make a lot of money
i know you can afford to support me
but i also know i would love you
if you didn't have a thing to your name.

89.
i want to dye my hair.
but now i'm hesitating.
because if i go blonde.
i'll look just like her...
the one you used to love.

88.
her: buy me a puppy for my birthday?
him: ask your parents.
her: they won't buy me one. it's so unfair.
him: why not?
her: because my last puppy peed on the floor all the time.
him: *sigh* oh gee.
her: what?
him: that sounds like a valid reason to me! *laughs at her*

87.
i'M So ExCiTeD, It'S MaKiNg Me TyPe LiKe I'm In MiDdLe ScHoOL!!

86.
"note to self: don't say that we can't go somewhere because it's too far away, and then drive past it."
((my boyfriend said that. after telling me that we couldn't eat at "5 &nd Diner" because it was too far away, and then we drove past it on the way to his house...))

85.
just don't tell me it's a guys night out
and that i can't go
when i find out that
there are 3 other girls going.
that's not fucking fair.
if you wanted alone time with your friends
i would've understood completely.
just don't lie to me.

84.
&nd i completely understand why you would lie
why you wouldn't tell me what you were thinking
you've been hurt before.
you can't be honest with me just yet.
you don't trust me just yet.
i just wish you would've told me
that what you were thinking
is that you're in love with me.

83.
it's for the best baby
you're too good for me
you shouldn't have to put up with someone
like me.
that pulls shit
like this.
i'm so sorry
but i don't deserve you.

82.
i like girls too.
and i'm tired of everyone looking at it
like, "oh, that's HOTT!"
sure, it's a physical attraction
but it's an emotional attraction
a spiritual attraction
it's butterflies in my tummy
it's an understanding of each other.
it's love too.

81.
she's 15.
she has a boyfriend.
and you hooked up with her.
you'll never have to see her again.
YEAH BOYEEEEEE.

80.
and how would you feel if i was sending texts
to a boy that used to like me.
that said "look at my tan"
and "why weren't you at my dance recital,
i stole the show"?
and you say it's nothing..

79.
my best friend tried to kiss me.
for a split second, i was tempted.
but then i remembered,
you are the best thing that's ever happened to me.
you make me happier than i've ever been
you treat me better than anyone ever has
you are what i want.
and i'm not going to fuck that up.
so i realized,
that best friend,
he's not what i want.

78.
we blew up an air mattress,
put it in the bed of his truck,
and slept under the stars.
and it was his idea.
<333

77.
so maybe he's not as cute as orlando bloom
or as handsom as channing tatum.
but to me,
he's the most beautiful man alive.
and he's mine.

76.
as i lay here in your bed
on your laptop
in your house
wearing your shirt
i finally feel like me.

75.
let's go shopping.
retail therapy, ya know?
i need some shoes...

74.
thank you for letting me come over at 2 in the morning
just because i was scared to be home alone.
thank you for letting me sleep in your arms
just because i didn't feel safe otherwise.
thanks for being there for me
just because you love me

73.
we should get outta here.
there's nothing good in this town.

72.
i feel like a little kid again.
the one that wants to run away.
because she's mad at her mommy and daddy.
only this time,
i can run right into your arms.

71.
so maybe if i drink this bottle of jim beam.
and i get drunk enough to fuck you
and get pregnant.
then maybe i'll get noticed.
but that wouldn't make you stick around,
would it?

70.
why the hell would you do this to me? lead me on?
make me think you actually want me or something.
when you knew all along i wasn't what you wanted.

69.
i want a guy who will tell me no. who will call me beautiful instead of hott. i want a guy that will always love me for me. that will buy me chocolate when i need it. and not think i'm gross if i fart once in a while. i want a guy that knows what my favorite flower is, but doesn't buy it for me right away, because he's saving it for a special time. i want a guy that will appreciate my girly side. that will notice my efforts to impress him.  that realizes it takes 3 hours to look this good. and that appreciates it that i try that hard.  but even though i'm always girly, will always want to wrestle with me if i'm down for it.  i want a guy that says, "baby, come and kiss me" every morning when he wakes up. i want a guy that will hold me when we're sleeping, but will let me be the "big spoon" every now and then. i want you.

68.
and we can't even go out to eat
at that place where we first met.
because she works there..

67.
what's that in your hand?
a text from another girl?
and you say it means nothing..
then why won't you let me read it?

66.
there's a few things you don't know about me.
that i've been too scared to tell you.
everytime i see you,
i still get butterflies.
you still make me nervous.
but in a good way

65.
hold me tight. i can feel that you need me.

64.
take me away. kidnap me. we'll live somewhere else..
and we'll be happy.

63.
i want to get married. i want to have kids. i want to have that whole, perfect life thing. and i want that with you.

62.
thank you for watching all my dumb chick flicks with me.
thank you for making me watch all your dumb war movies.
thank you for spoiling me and calling me princess.
thank you for telling me no and calling me dork.
thank you for making love to me in the summertime.
thank you for just wanting to cuddle with me sometimes.
thank you for singing along to my old nsync cd's
thank you for making me listen to your hard rock cd's.
thanks.

61.
her: let's do something.
him: okay. pick out a movie you want to watch.
her: okay i got one.
him: what is it
(she shows it to him;;it's 50 First Dates)
him: [O.o] you wanna go swimming?

60.
if anyone knows me very well,
they know i'm used to ALWAYS getting what i want.
when i want it.
i got you.
but you don't give me everything i want all the time.
you tell me no.
and strangely,
i like that.

59.
i'm not going to just quit living a normal life.
just because i'm having your baby.
and i hope you don't walk away from the situation.
she's ours.
and i can't do this by myself.

58.
i love everything about you.
i love how you have tickle fights with me.
i love how you tell me no sometimes.
i love how you have big dreams for your life.
i love that you're actually chasing them.
&& i love how i'm a big part of those dreams for the future.
<333

57.
i'm a very opinionated person.
and i'm big on respect.
so while you stand here and yell in my face,
i'll just walk away.
otherwise, you're gonna get my full opinion of you.
and i don't think you could take it.

56.
her: you don't understand! every time i'm going to see you, i have to try so hard to look pretty for you. because i want you to look at me. i want you to think i'm gorgeous.
him: no, YOU don't understand. every time i see you, i already think you're gorgeous.

55.
her: i <3 this song baby.
him: why?
her: it reminds me of us.
radio: "touchin your body all soakin' wet."
her: 0.o
(he busts out laughing at her)
((the song was "summertime" by new kids on the block))

54.
sometimes a father isn't there.
sometimes he's just some guy that sends a card every now and again.
sometimes he doesn't want to take responsibility for his children.
sometimes he loves you.
when it's convenient for him.

53.
if you're using me.
just tell me now.
i'd rather get hurt now.
because if i keep falling in love with you.
the pain would be too much to bear.
<333

52.
My family are my best friends &
my best friends are my family
i'm the mother to my friends
i'm the baby in my relationship.
i'm caring & sweet.
i'm a bitch with an attitude.
hello, world.
i'm me.

51.
I like to get all dressed up for no real reason.
It makes me feel special.
It makes me feel pretty.
Basically, I'm someone else for a while.
I'm the girl I secretly long to be,
each & every day.

50.
I still have my little girl moments where all I want is bubblegum.
I sleep with a teddy
& the truth is.
I watch Hannah Montana.
I'll -never- grow up.
<333

49.
In August, you'll be going away. To flight school.
Or Iraq.
we're not sure.
Either way,
don't leave me.

48.
you gotta miss someone in order to love them. when you're apart, your love is tested.
it grow. it gets stronger. && seeing them again,
it makes their smile that much sweeter.

47.
because even when i'm holding you tight, I still want to be closer.

46.
her: come back here. I miss you.
him: i miss you too.
(walks the 5 feet back to her)
her: (sigh) that's better.

45.
him: I love you.
her: no you don't.
him: shut up, jerk. i said, I LOVE YOU.
her: (smiles)

44.
her: so you never cry?
him: no.
me: you have NO emotions:
him: they're locked up. way down deep in a vault.
me: how do I get them outta there?
him: you got 'em

43.
her: promise me you won't say you love me until you mean it? 'til you really, truly--
him: (interrupting) I love you.

42.
her: will you take care of me?
him: only if you promise not to hurt me.
her: of course I won't.
him: (smiles) I'm not going anywhere.

41.
i love the way you talk about the future
as if you just know i'm going to be in it.

40.
sure, you're not my "type" that i said i was attracted to
but since i fell in love with you
i don't look at other guys
i don't think about other guys
and no one is more attractive than you.
i don't have to check out other guys
because the sexiest man alive.
is right here in my arms.

39.
i've never seen a guy try harder
than you
to make a girl fall in love with him.
flowers. candy. cards. dinner. dates.
honey,
you had me at hello.

38.
and he remembered what i was wearing
the first time we met.
even though he never said a word to me that day.
he knew it.
he knew we were in love.
before i did.

37.
i'd die without my cell phone.
i know it sounds superficial and materialistic.
but it's only because it has your old texts
and pictures of you.
and that's what i look at when i'm lonely

36.
i want the kinda guy who lets me drive his pickup.
the kinda guy that holds my hand all the time.
the kinda guy that gives me his hat.
the kinda guy who has no sweatshirts because i have them all.
i want the kinda guy who takes me to dinner.
at red lobster.
just because he felt like it.
i want the kinda guy who says, "i don't want to have sex
because i like you more than that"
basically.
i want you

35.
standing in this airport
waiting for you to leave
i can feel the abandonment in the air.
and it hurts..

34.
i know i hurt you.
i know that i'm sorry.
i learned a lot about life and love.
i know you don't trust me.
but you have to believe me.
if we start over, i can love you
better than any other girl in the world.

33.
that's what i get for trying to get along
that's what i get for trying to be nice
that's what i get for trying to make things okay
that's what i get for just fucking being a good person
i get fucked over
i get slapped in the face
just leave me alone because
i never want to hear your voice again
i never want to see your face again
and i sure as hell never want to be your friend again

32.
i know i did a lot of things wrong.
i messed a lot of things up.
but the one thing i never did
was use you.

31.
sometimes, the best friends you'll ever have
are the ones that have been there all along
staring you in the face.
the ones YOU pushed away.

30.
you're going to vegas for the weekend
with you older friend.
and for some CRAZY reason.
i completely trust you.

29.
if i fall in love. that'd be great.
but if not, ehh. whatever.
you can't force love.

28.
just let me go.
this hurts too much to stay here.
you say you want to work it out.
but that'll make it worse.
just...
let it go.

27.
i never knew how much love a heart could hold
til someone called me mommy
((unknown;;dedicated to my sister-in-law and her new baby, Eliza))

26.
baby this is never gonna work.
i like you way more than you like me.
and if i let you know how much i really care.
you can just use it against me.
use it to hurt me.
two of us can't be together if our feelings don't match.

25.
you're not a man.
a man doesn't lie.
a man doesn't hit a woman.
and a man is there for his children.
a man takes responsibility.
a man knows how to love.

24.
and i don't care how stupid you are
or what dumb thing you did to get yourself in this situation
girl, i will always be there to bail you out
because you're family
and family comes first

23.
we can run away from here. we don't have to stay
we'd be so much happier living on minimum wage in a too small apartment
than living here with all these people telling us
who to love and how to live our lives

22.
i stand here in the rain. for the first time in a long time
it's okay to cry because the raindrops will hide my tears

21.
when i was a little girl;; i dreamed i had a pony.  i didn't
when i was in middle school;; i dreamed i had a lot of friends and cool clothes.  i didn't
now;; i dream that you are mine and mine alone.  you're not.

20.
we both know that this relationship was over way before it ended.
i still love you.
i just don't ever want to see your face again.

19.
let the music take you away.  dance. sing. laugh.
nobody cares.
get caught up in the moment.
because that's how youcan define your life.
the moments when you don't care what anyone thinks.
you just live

18.
you call me hott;; i wanna be called beautiful
you call me allison;; i wanna be called baby
you hold my hand;; i want you to hold me
you say you like me because i'm nice;; i want you to love me because i'm me.

17.
we've been together for years.  always at each other's sides.
it doesn't matter what goes down, we're there for each other.
through the good times.  through the bad times.
that's us.
best friends.

16.
i wanted to get a tattoo. you laughed at my idea.
i have dreams for after high school.  you say i can't do it.
i want to drive a pickup just like the boys.  you laugh and call me stupid.
i wanted to tell you i love you.  you just ignored me.

15.
it hasn't even been that long.. but i feel as if i'm really a part of your life now.
i love your mom.  she's my friend.
your dogs are like my pets too.
whenever we go places, we go together.
this feels so right.

14.
your old ripped up jeans.
your too-big-for-me sweatshirt.
this too-small chair
this not-big-enough room
all of this not-quite-good-enough stuff..
it's perfect.

13.
you wanted nothing to do with me all night.  now that you're ready
you want to be all over me?
i'm not here to entertain you.

12.
your breath.  steady breathing.  next to me.  it's my lullaby.

11.
don't get mad at me when i get all fired up. it's not my fault.
you get angry because i'm hot blooded and always want to fight.
but the truth is, you taught me how.

10.
i have to sit there and listen to all these songs that mean all these things from all my exes.
the only way for it to get better is for us to have a song. that could make it all go away.
to finally have a song that makes me happy instead of sad.
finally have a song that has some good meaning.
and doesn't hurt to listen to.

9.
i don't want you hear you talk about that girl. not because i'm still in love with you.
not because i still want you. but because that used to be me.
and i can't handle that.

8.
even though it hurts when you don't say it back, i appreciate you not saying it if you don't mean it.
i've been lied to too many times to bear it again. so thank you

7.
would it make sense if i said i found the other .1%

6.
the sound of you sleeping next to me, it's comforting.
for the first time in a long time, i feel safe.

5.
i could stare at you forever. you're gorgeous. i love you

4.
it's like i waited my whole life to find someone like you. and when you finally come along i'm too fucking scared to do anything about it. i just push you away. i'm frightened that something like this could actually be real. i've had my share of heartache and i can't take being hurt like that again. so please be patient. don't leave me. i'll realize that i can trust you. but it'll take time.

3.
please don't stop talking to me just because you're not my boyfriend.
why can't guys just want to be friends?

2.
i never want to go home. i'm much more comfortable here with you.
in this too small chair and the uncomfortable positions we must lay in so we both fit.
it's still my favorite place to be. sleeping in your arms.
by your side all night.

1.
my saxophone is my passion and my piano is my escape